The day of departure arrived. It felt somewhat strange. I can only describe it as the feeling you get on your first day at school – a slight vulnerability perhaps. Wariness of the unknown. Knowing you’ve had so much time thinking about this one thing, going through it all in your mind and then all of a sudden, it’s here.
I was dropped off at the start and after some quick goodbyes (cliché but I hate long goodbyes) I was off. Being nervous, and wary of water being an issue, I drank a fair old bit of the stuff at home and in the car, and the first three miles resulted in four stops to answer the call of nature.
The backpack felt heavy, but comfortable. The early morning weather was perfect, and I was striding out gallantly. I started off counting how many people I met, but lost count during day two. The people I did stop and chat to were friendly as expected. Over the four days I met with people inspired as well as repulsed with my walk. The thought of walking four marathons on the bounce was enough to make people conclude I was nuts. I met people like me walking the whole thing, but in smaller sections, as well as two guys who were wild camping also. It made me sad to think that whilst they had each other, I had no one who would be up for joining me on my walk. Doing it solo was probably more from circumstance rather than choice. The unexpected feeling of loneliness followed me for two days. I was expecting to feel completely at home, alone on the trail, and pleased to be with my thoughts and nature, which I was, but there was this niggling feeling of loneliness. I found myself thinking about long-term loneliness, and to people who are lonely every day, and thinking about the future a lot. For someone who enjoys their own company a fair bit, being permanently alone would be sad on one major front. Who would I share my stories with of adventures such as this? After two days, these thoughts subsided as, I assume, I was feeling more positive and determined to reach the end. Also, luckily, as evenings in my camp were the obviously more lonely experiences, I had packed my wind-up radio so had a few stations to keep me company.
I passed many landmarks, through many picturesque villages, saw some unbelievable views and experienced human kindness – complete strangers stopping for a chat, offering to fill up my water bottle. The lady and her daughter who showed me the way out of Wooton-under-Edge. The couple on Coaley Peak who were out looking at wildflowers, who I was convinced were an old married couple, but weren’t. It turned out they have been best friends since school in the 1950s. There was the moment I passed through part of Stroud, which was by far the largest town the path goes through until Bath, and feeling as if everything was so loud and busy. It had been two days of relative silence up to that point.
The walk was packed with simple pleasures, which is what I hoped for. After three days of rambling in moderately warm weather, I found a sunken lane with a waterfall coming off the fields above it. It was 6.30pm, no one was around, so I took off my t-shirt and doused myself under it for a minute or two, feeling completely alive and refreshed. I then spent that evening sleeping in a graveyard. It was the only time I had to use my tarp as rain was forecast to be moving in. I awoke at 3am to the sound of rain falling heavily on the roof of my shelter. I smugly fell back to sleep knowing I had made the right choice and was as dry as a Pharaoh’s sock. An hour later, after a weird dream in which I had gotten up and was back out walking, I decided to lie there for a bit going through in my head the order in which I needed to do everything in order to stay dry. It was a bit cramped inside the shelter, but I managed it very successfully and was on the trail by 5.15am, with a long day ahead of me, some 28 miles to cover to get me to Bath.
Later that morning, I really felt I was making progress when the path became an old road called Bath Road. I was getting somewhere. My feet were now as wet as an otter’s pocket thanks to a previously undiscovered hole in both boots.
At one point I could glimpse a large town away to the right. “It must be Bath!”, thought I. It wasn’t. Bath finally came into view shortly after skirting around Bath racecourse, which is high up on a hill. Feeling quite chipper about the whole thing, having walked 98 miles, I decided to run the last bit into Bath. There was a quite sad and moving moment when I realised I was passing through the last gate of the whole way. Leaving the last field, before I re-entered urbanised life. I turned round and took one last look and said my farewells. Not ten paces into Bath and I was met by two blokes with thick south western accents, who asked me where I’d been, for how far and how long. Then while their dog, unbeknownst to them, relieved itself of its dinner behind them, they told me I could get a bus to Bath Abbey a hundred yards away. I didn’t. I carried on, full of self-congratulatory platitudes – I had made it. Three miles to go. The easy bit. Then I remembered. In conversations with other ultra runners, the ‘final, killer hill’ in Bath came up a few times. I assumed I’d already done it. But there it was. A 45 degree street. It made me incredibly grumpy and really took the shine off the finish. It was seemingly the final test. I grumbled and swore under my breath but quite literally avoided the path of least resistance, knowing that as little as an hour later, the knowledge of doing that would bite me in the arse.
102 miles of self-discovery, reflection and learning, confirming to myself that I’m going in the right direction, though it may be in the other direction to everyone else. I would rather be out there now, doing these kind of things while I can, so when I’m too old to do them, I can look back at it all, content that I did it when I could and lived fully when I was able. Too many people I know who are far too young to be wasting their precious time here on earth, by doing such boring things. Youth is definitely wasted on the young.
I will sign off with a quote that I saw on a dedicated bench along the way. It went something like this:
“A society grows when old people plant trees whose shade they will never sit in.”
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A fanastic achievement Phil, and an inspirational read – thank you for sharing x
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Hey Bec 🙂 Hope you’re well! Thank you for reading, I’m glad you enjoyed it. I can definitely recommend a long walk in these testing times 🙂 x